Training for the Better

I woke up a bit reluctant today because I had to go to an all day corporate training for work....on a Sunday. As much as I like a free meal and the potential of winning free random goodies, its just not how I envisioned spending my Sunday. And if you know me, I haven't had the best of luck working for quality employers, but since I AM working for a quality employer now, I figured training couldn't be that bad.
Training was actually fun, got me thinking, and really got me pumped to be associated with the brand. I've been learning a lot the past few weeks as I'm also taking online training to learn about the product and features, but today's training got the whole dealership involved. The breakout sessions proved productive and the videos were inspiring.
I know most people take the speakers, sessions, and the brainstorming that happens at these large sessions with a grain of salt, but I got really into it. I'm so used to being part of that group at work that's "cool", you know the ones; they just do the job and not much else. The training really got me excited to want to do more. Exceed customer expectation, exceed MY personal expectations and become an asset to the company. I don't want to be a cool kid anymore, I want to be a work nerd. I don't want to get to the point where I have no life, but I do want to make a difference, and now I feel like I'm part of something that helps change the world:

Earthquakes & Hurricanes Oh My!

Its been a pretty big week for Mother Nature. First, an earthquake that was felt from Virgina to Maine, then a hurricane that devastated the Caribbean and most of the eastern seaboard. As I lay hold up in my apartment for the latter event, I began to think of the trajectory my life is taking. I've been approached with a few propositions lately, some have crashed and burn and some....well, we're still waiting to see what happens. To say that I've been disappointed with how my year is going in an understatement. Yes, there have been some awesome times, good moments financially and personally, but overall, I'm not very excited about it. I think the reason for this is because I haven't gotten what I wanted out of life. The obvious response would be "well are you putting your all into it?". Honestly, I believe I am. I've done quite a bit to try and advance myself out of this hole I feel like I've been digging for most of my 20s. I don't know if many people would understand where I'm coming from, but its really frustrating when you hustle and little happens. I know every small step is a major victory, but in the end I can't help but wonder, when will all this pay off?

"Insanity: doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results."--Albert Einstein

It ends in The City

This past weekend was a curse and a blessing all in one. Let's start with the good news:
My boss recently moved into a new apartment and then got sick, leaving me...YES ME...in charge of the department for about 2 days. Wasn't too bad. I got things done and held it together, the place didn't burn down so I did a great job. Spent time drinking with my Ship and her friends and received a "Cheers" type greeting on the patio of Fridays on the Parkway. Off to a CUS probate (never a disappointment), then home to rest. Hopped a train to Jersey, then off the The City with mi lady. Met some cool people, ate some great food, and broke the bank my getting tatt'd up. Honestly, at this point couldn't have asked for a better Memorial Day weekend.

The Bad News:
After a "blah" Sunday, and a Monday filled with Star Wars watching (don't judge! The movie is madd deep if you pat attention), mi lady comes home--with Taco Bell--both of which made me happy. Now at this point I am content and answering some text messages, then...it happened... the lady is being aggressive (as usual) and I am not in the mood (as usual), not at the moment at least. Maybe after a shower...who knows. Then the question "who are you texting?" Innocent enough. Jokingly, I respond with another person's name. No real reason behind it. It was a bad attempt at a joke that I was immediately going to correct, but decided not to because it was "no big deal"...or so I thought. Then it came; the questioning, the worry, the tears, the consoling.

The Result:
Mental and Emotional death. In ANY situation there are always 3 choices: "Change it. Accept it. Leave it." I've already tried 2, maybe its time to choose the other.