Learning Lessons

Last week a couple of awesome friends came halfway across the world to visit Jak (my roommate) and I. It was beyond awesome. Having them here for 5 days kinda felt like I never left Philly, and reminded me that I really miss my friends and some aspects of my life there, but chilling out here and just doing our thing was a million times better than anything Philly could offer.
After they left for the second leg of their vacation, it was back to just me my roomie, and the randomness that has become our everyday lives. I've talked to a couple friends and had each one ask, "are you happy there?"
Part of the reason for me leaving Philly was that I felt very unfulfilled in many aspects of my life. I felt stuck. But am I now "happy"? Has my life done a 180 in about two and a half months? Its a loaded question.
There are things about me that are "changing" I guess you could say, but these are things I've always aspired to do, its just that now I'm not giving into excuses. I've shed a lot of the material things and I'm taking this vagabond life seriously. One thing that's happened that I'm ever grateful for is the reduced noise in my head.
I'm a chronic thinker, its quite an annoying condition. Its very hard for me to turn my mind off and be open to things, but here...its like my mind knows to be quite. No job stressing, no stressing about weekend plans, no CUS stress, just me and the things I've always wanted to do to better myself, and yes the constant sunshine and perfect weather do help.
I don't know if I'm "happy". The more I stick around on this planet, the more I begin to feel that the word "happy" is much like the word "love", highly overused yet rarely and truly experienced. I'm still growing and becoming the person I've always wanted to be, and accepting the fact that it may not have been what I envisioned as a teenager. I'm becoming who I was meant to be. Its as if the Universe is telling me to listen and slow down, stop worrying and fix your chronic thinking problem because in the grand scheme of life nothing's permanent and problems are only teaching tools. Listen and Learn.

Philosphy + Happiness

I have recently purchase "The Master Key System" by Charles Haanel. I read briefly about this book when I read, then re-read "The Secret". Basically, the book is a guide on how to utilize the Law of Attraction as well as other Universal Laws to bring about happiness and peace in one's life. Now, I don't expect to find all of life's answers in this book, but hey its a step :). I'm really looking forward to ingesting the book mentally to gain a better perspective. I have not been in the best of moods lately, I'll spare the personal reasonings, and as usual I go through my typical crisis of conciousness. Struggling to understand why I am feeling a certain way and how to fix it to become a happier person. Honestly, thinking about how I can be better gets to be way to much. Then I get caught in a cycle of loathing my thinking. Strange I know, but its just how my little brain works. So, as usual, I get tired of being unhappy and unfulfilled. Let's hope "The Master Key System" will help break that. While "The Secret" defintely opened my eyes and mind, maintaining the positive thought process is a daily struggle. Yeah, still working on it.

I also recently saw an interview with Eckhart Tolle author of "The Power of Now" & "A New Earth: Awakening to Your Life's Purpose". In case you didn't know, the latter book has been officially accepted into Oprah's Book Club and has been critcally acclaimed. While watching the interview, he said something that sounded so right; "Forget the ego". Hmmm? The ego is what causes the stream of conciousness to being and start the I'm always right cycle, which we humans are known for. This is what helps drive our anxiety, stress and unhappiness. "Forget the ego". If only I could do it so simply. Learning to live in the now and forgetting the ego will now become a personal & spiritual goal for me. I've been told all my life I am meant to be great. I believe it. Maybe this will help me achieve it.